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What's that, my shirt? 穿的什么，我的衬衫？
It looks good on you. 你穿着真好看
Yes, Mom, it's me. 喂，妈妈，是我
Yeah, it was great. 是，玩得很好
- Give her a kiss. - Sara sends her love. -给她一个吻 -莎拉向你问好
We relaxed, it was nice, we took it easy. 我们好好享受了一下，很放松
How about you? Not too tired? 你呢？没有太累吧？
Marcus? 马库斯？
Yes or no? 怎么样？
Don't push so hard. 别逼太紧
I'm not pushing, Mom, I just want to know where he's heading. 我没有逼他，妈妈，我就是想知道他要去哪
Anyway, we'll talk later. 好吧，我们晚点再聊
Call you back, love you. 回头打给你，爱你
You can come visit soon? 你很快就能过来看我们了？
Yeah, of course. 当然
Love you. 爱你
What do you want for lunch? 中午想吃点什么？
I'm not hungry. 我不饿
You're gorging on junk. You're not serious, Marcus. 你在大吃垃圾食品，你不听话，马库斯
I'm in a rush, Grandma. 我不着急，奶奶
A rush? 着急？
I'll make some vegetables, you'll have some, 我做点蔬菜，你到时候可以吃一些
and we'll have lunch together. You need to eat healthy food. 而且我们可以一起吃午饭，你得吃点健康的东西
No, Grandma, I have to go, sorry. 不，奶奶，我得走了，抱歉
Thanks. 谢谢
Marcus... 马库斯......
There's no time, but thanks. 我要来不及了，不过谢谢你
Don't forget your mask. 记得戴口罩
Don't come back too late, Marcus! 回来别太晚，马库斯！
It's raining. 下雨了
Don't take the metro, I'll drive you. 别坐地铁了，我开车送你
Thanks. 谢谢
See you later. 再见
François... 弗朗索瓦
Hello, Hind Darwish, you're in Lebanon, in Beirut. 你好，Hind Darwish，你在黎巴嫩的贝鲁特
You're a journalist, a publisher, 你是一名记者、出版商
an activist. 一名活动家
Tell us about the crisis you're enduring. 告诉我们，你正在经历的危机
It's a serious economic crisis. 是一个很严重的经济危机
The crisis is also social, political, 同时也是社会危机、政治危机
cultural, moral. 文化危机、道德危机
Corruption gnaws away at every level of the country, 腐败腐蚀着这个国家的方方面面
down to the bone. 深入骨髓
Especially after that catastrophe, 尤其是在大爆炸之后（贝鲁特大爆炸）
the catastrophe of August 4, the big explosion, 8月4日的大爆炸
the Lebanese are living a nightmare, pure hell. 黎巴嫩人生活在噩梦中，完全就是地狱
Many Lebanese are leaving the country. 很多黎巴嫩人都要离开了
Do you think Lebanon is losing its lifeblood? 你认为黎巴嫩正在失去其命脉吗？
Yes, I do. 是的
We're witnessing, yes, a very frightening exodus. 我们正在见证，是的，一场骇人的大迁徙（exodus：出埃及记）
We've experienced emigration after the war. 我们经历过战后移民
But those emigrants tried to return to Lebanon. 但那些想要返回黎巴嫩的移民
They kept ties to the country. 他们和国家之间仍紧密连结
But now we're getting a sense 但我们现在已经感受到了
of despair, of disgust, 那种绝望和厌恶
of repugnance about what's happening in Lebanon. 那种对发生在黎巴嫩的事情的反感
And we're really afraid that these people, 而我们十分担心这些
who are middle class, who are young, won't come back. 年轻的中产阶级，不会再回来了
Thank you, Hind Darwish, for your testimony. 谢谢你，Hind Darwish，感谢你的证言
Now, Yasmine... 现在，雅思敏......
- How much? - 55. -多少钱？ -55
Here. 给
I saw François today. 我今天看到弗朗索瓦了
Okay. 好吧
And what did you do? 那你今天都干什么了？
I went shopping. 我去购物了
You went to Vitry? 你去维特里了？
Yes, Vitry. 是的，维特里
See Nelly? 去见妮莉了？
No time to visit my mother. 没时间去看我妈
I just went shopping. 我就单单去购物了
Did you see Marcus? Any news? 你见到马库斯了吗？有什么新消息吗？
Yes. 有的
- Yes? - Yes, I said. -有？ -我说了，有的
Your son exists for me too. 你儿子对我来说也是存在的
Marcus. 马库斯
He's my business too. 他也与我相关
I'll tell you something I never said before. 我想告诉你一些事，这些事我从未说过
The first time I saw you, 我第一次见到你的时候
or the second, whatever... 也可能是第二次，总之......
I was living with François, I barely knew you. 我当时正和弗朗索瓦住在一起，和你还不熟
We went to a party, the three of us. 我们三个一起
At friends of mine. 去我朋友那里去参加聚会
Remember? 还记得吗？
Okay. 好的
You watched a match before, that's why you were together. 在这之前你们一起看了一场比赛，所以当时你们在一起
All three of us went. 我们三个都去了
And at one point during the party, you put on music. 在派对进行到某个时间，你放了一首音乐
François and I danced. 弗朗索瓦和我跳了舞
You were behind the computer, looking at us. 你站在电脑后面，看着我们
And you had... 然后你......
a smile. 笑了
A smile, I swear... 你笑了，我发誓......
What a smile! 那个微笑简直了！
That's... 那是......
that's the first thing. 那是第一件事
Then we took a taxi back, all three of us. 然后我们打车回去，我们三个一起
Back then, you lived near me, rue d'Amsterdam. 那时候，你住得离我很近，在阿姆斯特丹路
You were still with your wife. 你还和你妻子在一起
We got to my street and you said... 我们来到我住的那条街，你说......
"I'll go by foot. She's waiting for me." “我走过去，她在等我。”
I thought that François would stay with me. 我以为弗朗索瓦会留下陪我
You'd go to your wife and he'd stay with me. 你会去找你妻子，他会留下来陪我
Hey, can you picture it? 嘿，你还记得吗？
Vaguely, yeah. 依稀记得
I remember, François said 我记得，弗朗索瓦说
he was going home. 他要回家了
I said that... 我说......
I wanted him to stay with me after the party. 我想要他在派对之后陪陪我
You were shocked he was leaving. You said: "François! 你当时很惊讶他要走了，你说：“弗朗索瓦！
You, you... 你，你......
you have to stay!" 你必须得留下！”
He said: "I don't have to do anything." 他说：“没什么事情是我必须要做的”
And I... 而我......
as I walked home, I thought: 在回家的路上，我在想
"Why am I with the one who leaves? “为什么我会和一个不愿留下的人在一起？”
Why aren't I with the one who... 为什么我没有和一个
goes to sleep with his wife on rue d'Amsterdam?" 会回到阿姆斯特丹路上，回到妻子身边睡觉的人在一起？
I envied your wife. 我羡慕你的妻子
You still envy her? 你还羡慕她吗？
Because you're my rue d'Amsterdam wife. 因为你现在是我的阿姆斯特丹路上的妻子了
Yes, Mom. 喂，妈妈
I can't this morning, I have stuff to do. 今天早上不行，我有事
I'll call you back. 我会给你回电话
Goodbye. 拜拜
What do you have to do? 什么事情是你必须要做的？
Stuff. 就是有事
I'm off. 我走了
Sara? 萨拉？
Can I take your credit card? 我能用一下你的信用卡吗？
You don't prefer a transfer? 你不喜欢转账吗？
No wire transfers. 我没有银行电汇
You always do the shopping, so it's easier. 你经常购物，所以这很容易
Forget it, I'll manage. 算了，我自己想办法吧
- Don't get upset, here. - Forget it. -别不高兴，给你 -算了
- Take it! - Forget it, I said. -拿着！ -我说过了，算了吧
See you later. 再见
François! 弗朗索瓦！
You're back. 你回来了
Mind calling me later? 你能晚点再打给我吗？
Okay, bye. 好的，拜拜
Here. 给
So... 那么......
Birth certificate, good. 出生证明，很好
This... 这个......
your police record? 你的违警记录？
That's right. 对的
All right. 好吧
Here's the tax stamp. 这是印花税票
Here. 给
A document's missing. Company registration number? 少了一个文件。你的公司注册号码呢？
- It must be there. - I don't see it. -肯定有的 -我没看到
Then I forgot it. 那我应该是忘了
I'm sorry. 不好意思
Do I really need it today? 一定今天要吗？
Yes, sir. 是的，先生
You'll come back. 你得再来一趟
No big deal, I'll come back. 没事，我会再来一趟
Take your documents. 带上你的文件
And make another appointment. 重新预约一次
Goodbye, sir. Have a nice day. 再见，先生，祝你今天愉快
Hello. 您好
Yes, Mom. 妈妈
What do you mean, what am I doing? I'm working. 你这是什么意思，我在干什么？我在工作啊
Hear me better now? 能听清吗？
Tell Marcus I'll come by Friday. 告诉马库斯，我周五过来
That way we can talk. 我们能谈谈
I had no time to call his teacher. I will. 我没时间给他老师打电话。我会的
All right. 好吧
Bye, Mom. 拜拜，妈妈
That was François. 是弗朗索瓦打来的
He's starting an agency, wants me to go in. 他开了一家新机构，想让我过去
That's good. 那挺好的
Isn't it? 不是吗？
What do you think? 你怎么看？
I don't know. 我不知道
No idea. 我没想法
Dunno. 不知道
You happy? 你开心吗？
That François wants you to work with him? 弗朗索瓦想要你和他一起工作，你开心吗？
I said I don't know. 我说了，我不知道
No idea. 我没想法
Why? 为什么？
Think there'll be problems? 你觉得会出问题吗？
No, why? I never had problems with François. 不会啊，为什么这么说？我和弗朗索瓦之间从没有过问题
We've always had each other's numbers. 我们一直都互相存有联系方式
So why are you hesitating? 那你在犹豫什么？
Are you scared of something? 你在担心什么吗？
No, I'm scared of nothing. 不，我什么都不担心
So what's bothering you? 所以你在烦脑些什么？
Nothing's bothering me. 我没有烦恼什么
You? 你呢？
What's bothering you? 你在烦恼些什么？
- Me? - Yes, you. -我？ -对啊，你呢
On the contrary. 正相反
No, it... 不，这......
it makes me happy. 这让我挺开心的
Happy to know you're meeting up and working together. 很开心你们要见面了，还要一起工作
Happy for you, for him, for you both. 为你，为他，为你们俩，都开心
You know how much I cared for François. 你知道我有多在乎弗朗索瓦
It might be strange seeing him again, because... 再见到他应该挺奇怪的，因为......
when you love someone it never really goes away. 当你爱上一个人时，这种感觉不会完全消失
I do feel something special for him. 我对他的感情的确不一般
But he and I are over with. 但我们之间已将结束了
I live with you, Jean. 我和你住在一起，让
No need to worry. 不用担心
Why are you telling me this? 你为什么和我说这些？
I'm not worried. 我没有担心
Then everything's fine. 那就没问题
Did he ask if we were still together? 他有问你我们是否还在一起吗？
No. 没有
I don't discuss my private life. 我不谈论我的个人生活
Well, you had to discuss it at some point. 那你迟早还是要和他说的
At some point, but that's it. 迟早会说，但也就说说就行了
It pulled you apart, it separated you. 是这件事导致你们俩分开的
No, it didn't pull us apart. 不，这件事没有让我们分开
It's been years. If that didn't pull you apart, what did? 这么多年了，如果不是这件事，那是什么事？
Prison? You in prison? 是监狱吗？你进监狱那件事？
The fact that he disappeared? 因为他没有出现？
He had his business, I had mine. 他有他的事情，我有我的事情
He asked no questions? 他什么都没问？
Nothing about your prison sentence? 关于你进监狱的事情，什么都没问？
At one point, but that's all. 问了一下，就一次
We didn't mention you if you're asking. 我们没有提到你，如果你要问的是这个
Why don't we ever talk? 为什么我们从来不谈？
Why can't we talk about what François represents, 为什么我们不能谈谈弗朗索瓦的反应
about how we met? 关于我们如何认识的？
It's not insignificant. 这不是件无关紧要的小事
I'm gonna wash up. 我要去洗漱了
All right. 好吧
You went to prison, not him. 是你进了监狱，不是他
Am I bothering you? 我打扰到你了吗？
No. 没有
All ears. 我洗耳恭听
What do you think about this thing? 你对这件事怎么看？
Tell me. 告诉我
What do you think? 你怎么看？
I think it's good, but you? 我觉得挺好的，你呢？
You into it? 那你觉得可以吗？
Seeing François again? 再去见弗朗索瓦？
Yes, I think so. 可以吧
Actually, I am. 说实话，我觉得可以
Yes. 是的
So no point hesitating. 所以没必要犹豫
No. 没必要
Except it stresses me out. 除非它让我压力很大
- You're cold. - A little. -你很冷 -有点
Don't worry, my love. 别担心，亲爱的
People change, you know. 人是会变的，你知道
François must have changed. He must have matured. 弗朗索瓦一定也变了，他肯定变成熟了
He must have gone through a lot. 他一定经历了很多
Ten years... imagine! 十年......你想想！
I have to go. 我得走了
- You're going out now? - Yes. -你现在要出去吗？ -是的
What'll you do with François? 你和弗朗索瓦要干什么去？
Same as before. 和以前一样
Meaning? 什么意思？
You'll give him a hand? 你会帮他吗？
I said he started an agency. I can't explain now... 我说了，他新开了一家机构，我现在没法解释......
I have to go. 我得走了
He's coming. We're meeting on the corner. 他过来了，我们约好在街角见
On the corner? 街角？
Well, on the corner, downstairs. 对啊，在楼下街角
On the corner. 在街角
So you kept her. 所以你还留着她
Yeah, I like her a lot. 对，我很喜欢她
She sat in Sara's garage, waiting for me. 她在萨拉的车库里，等着我
And... 而且......
life without me wasn't too hard? 没有我的生活过得还好吧？
Look at me. 看着我
Jean? 让？
Pick up, please. 接电话，拜托了
Marcus, call from your phone, maybe he'll answer. 马库斯，用你的手机打，可能他就会接电话了
What does it matter? I'm being expelled anyway. 那又能怎么样呢？反正我都要被开除了
Who cares? There's no use. 谁在乎呢？没用的
Good thinking, I can let myself die too. 好想法，我干脆也死了算了
Who cares? 谁在乎？
You exhaust me. 你让我精疲力尽
Don't say that. 别这样说
Not eating your toast? 你不吃你的土司了？
No, I'm not too hungry. 不吃，我不太饿
Fine. 好吧
I'm too old to be a real grandmother. I can't anymore. 我老了，没办法好好当祖母了，当不好了
Understand me? 你明白吗？
Okay, see you later. 好吧，再见
See you later. 再见
I got my bank statement. 我拿到了我的银行报告
And look. 你看
Yes, you're overdrawn. 是的，你的账户透支了
There were several recent withdrawals. 近期有几笔提款
What could have happened? I don't know. 发生了什么？我不知道
I know how you live. 我知道你的生活方式
So yeah, it's unusual. 所以是的，的确不寻常
Did anyone borrow your card, Mrs. Charles? 有人结果你的卡吗？查尔斯夫人？
Do you have it on you? 你带卡了吗？
Yes. 带了
Here. 给
You see? 你看？
Did you give the PIN to anyone? 你有把密码告诉过什么人吗？
No. 没有
Dad, are you there? 爸爸，你在吗？
Call me back. 给我回电话
You've had Marcus so long, Nelly. 你带了马库斯很久，妮莉
Forever. 一直带着他
Don't go blaming yourself. 不要责怪自己
Jean was in prison, he couldn't raise his son. 让当时在坐牢，他没法养自己儿子
It's not your fault. 这不是你的错
He did something stupid and it backfired. 他做了蠢事，也尝到了苦头
But he survived it. 但他挺过来了
Now his son is screwing up a little, 现在他儿子有点搞砸了
but it's no big deal. 但这不要紧
I can't manage with Marcus anymore. 我没法和马库斯再相处下去了
Doesn't he need someone strong, 他需要一个足够强大
someone to admire? 能让他崇拜的人
You don't admire your grandmother. 你不会崇拜你的奶奶
He loves you, mentions you every time. 他爱你，每次都提起你
Kids in his grade who slack off go to trade school. 他这个年级的孩子一偷懒就得去上职校
Does his mother ever call? 他妈妈打过电话吗？
Almost never. 几乎没有
But Marcus needs... 但马库斯需要......
to go to Martinique, to see his mother. It's important. 去马提尼克岛，去见他母亲，这很重要
She has a new life. 她有新的生活了
A new family. 一个新的家庭
Just tell me when. 你就告诉我什么时候
Just say when! 就说什么时候！
Okay. 好吧
I'll finish what I'm doing and I'll go. 我把我手头的事忙完我就去
Okay, no problem. 好，没问题
Okay, bye. 好，拜拜
Marcus - missed call 马库斯 -未接来电
Going out? 你要出去吗？
Yep. 是的
I don't know when I'll be back. Don't wait up. 我不知道什么时候能回来，不要等我了
Where are you going? 你去哪？
To see François' offices, to check out the space. 去弗朗索瓦的办公室，看看环境
Know where rue des Bleuets is? 你知道布勒埃路在哪吗？
Around here. 就在附近
What new offices? 什么新办公室？
I said he was starting an agency. 我说了他要开一家新机构
What kind of agency? 什么类型的机构？
For recruiting players. You know this. 为招募动员开的新机构，你知道的
We go to small clubs 我们去一些小俱乐部
to scout junior players to recruit them. 发掘年轻的运动员，签下他们
But you know this. 但你是知道的
I'm going. 我走了
See you later. 回见
You had that idea after your injury. 这主意是你受伤后想到的
Yes, I know. 是，我知道
Jean? 让？
I can't sleep. 我睡不着
You will. 你会睡着的
Did it go well? 一切顺利吗？
Yes. 顺利
Coming to bed? 上床来吗？
In a little while. 稍等一下
So do I get a kiss? 那你能吻我一下吗？
Yeah. 好的
Jean. 让
Do you love me? 你爱我吗？
Yes, I love you. 我爱你
Do you love me? 你爱我吗？
Yes. 爱
You'll tell me what you did? 你能告诉我你都干什么了吗？
There's nothing to tell. 没什么好说的
We're just working. 我们就是工作而已
Go to sleep. 睡吧
Is it going well? 进展顺利吗？
Yes, it is. 顺利
Sleep. 睡吧
Jean? 让？
Yes? 怎么了？
Did you talk about money yet? 你们有谈到钱吗？
Don't worry. 别担心
Yes, François. 喂，弗朗索瓦
I understand but... 我理解，但是......
my thing with Marcus is then. 我和马库斯的事情就在那个时候
Marcus is counting on me. 马库斯还指望着我呢
You can't make it because of your trip with François? 因为要和弗朗索瓦出差，所以不能去看马库斯了吗？
If I'm in Bayonne with François, I can't be in Vitry with Marcus. 如果我和弗朗索瓦在巴约纳（法国西南部城市），我就不能去维特里陪马库斯了
You can push it off. 你可以推迟出差啊
I can push it off, but... 我可以推迟，但是......
You can always push it off, but... 你当然可以推迟，但......
there's a risk, because it's a great opportunity. 这是有风险的，因为这是个好机会
And if things work out with François... 如果和弗朗索瓦这边进展顺利
it opens new horizons for me, see? 于我而言，就是新的台阶了，明白吗？
What will you do with François in Bayonne? 你和弗朗索瓦去巴约纳干什么？
Like before. Like we always have. 就和以前一样，还是以前那些事
I'll be middleman between him and the prospects. 我会做他和运动员之间的中间人
He can't be on the front lines. 他不能直接自己出面
So... 所以......
he needs someone credible. 他需要一个信得过的人
That's how we've always worked. 我们一直都是这样做的
You'll have a contract? Get paid? 你签合同了吗？有工资吗？
- It'll be fine. - Did you bring it up? -没问题的 -你提过这些吗？
Come on, obviously if... 放心吧，很显然，只要......
if I work, I'll get paid. 只要我干活，就会有报酬的
There are guys to recruit and that's on me. 我们要签下来一些人，都是我负责的
I'm the only one who can spot them. 只有我能挖掘到这些人
It means a lot to get back into sports. 能回到运动行业，回到运动员中
With the players... 对我意义很大......
What about your project? 那你自己的项目呢？
You're giving up on it? It's a good project. 你要放弃吗？这项目很好
I believe in it. How do you see things? 我相信，你怎么看待事情？
I believe in it too. It's my initiative. 我也相信，这是我的计划
It's my idea. 是我的主意
I believe in it, but I can do it whenever I want. 我相信它，但我什么时候想做都可以
Now I have a chance to get back into sports. 现在我有一个回到体育行业的机会
It's now, it's the moment. 此时此刻
And... 而且......
before, I rode the wave of my past as a player. 以前，我是一名运动员
Whereas now... 而现在......
I'm an ex-con. 我有前科
But you know that. 你知道的
I don't fucking believe it. 真他妈难以置信
I'm stuck in traffic, Mom. Sorry, I'm doing my best. 我这里堵车了，妈妈，抱歉，我在努力赶过来
I'm coming... 我在路上了......
No, I'm coming! 不，我在路上了！
Hi, Mom. 嗨，妈妈
I won't kiss you, I forgot my mask. 我就不亲你了，我忘了戴口罩
Can I come in? 我能进来吗？
Jean, I'm sorry, but... 让，我很抱歉，但是......
he doesn't want to see you. 他不想见你
I cancelled a meeting and it took 3 hours to get to Vitry. 我取消了会议，花了三个小时才到维特里
How can we see his teacher if Marcus won't see me? 如果马库斯不见我，我们怎么去见他的老师？
If I can't go inside, I can't come back. 我进不去就没机会再来了
This was my only free day. 我只有今天没事
Just tell me. 你就告诉我
How is he? That's all that matters. Is he okay? 他怎么样？这是唯一重要的，他还好吗？
It depends. 不好说
It depends on what? 怎么不好说？
On the people he hangs around with. 这得看他都和谁在一起玩
There's a lot of coming and going. 这些人来来去去的
So, like where is he now? 那么他现在在哪呢？
He went out. 他出去了
You don't know where? 你不知道他去哪了吗？
No. 不知道
Really don't know? 真的不知道？
I could say he's doing homework, 我可以说他在做作业
but I wouldn't say that's the problem now. 但这不是当务之急
What's the problem now? 什么是当务之急？
I find him absent. 我找不到他了
I spent three hours in traffic, 我在路上堵了三个小时
if I can't go inside, I'm leaving, sorry. 如果我不能进去，那我就要走了，抱歉
Shut up! Pain-in-the-ass dog! 闭嘴！你个讨厌鬼！
Shut up! 闭嘴！
What's your problem with the dog? 这狗又怎么你了？
- He's a pain! - He's nice, just a guard dog. -他就是个事逼！ -他很乖，看门狗就是这样嘛
Your dog's not nice! He makes too much noise. 你的狗一点都不乖！他太吵了
Come, Easton. 过来，伊斯顿
Mom, sorry, I have to go. 妈妈，抱歉，我得走了
No, it's good, son. On the contrary. 不用道歉，儿子，这样挺好的
I'm glad you're working and that things are good. 我很高兴你在工作，一切都很顺利
Marcus, open the window, please. 马库斯，请你把窗子打开
I want to tell you something. 我想告诉你一些事情
Marcus, please. 马库斯，拜托了
Marcus! 马库斯！
Don't cry. 不要哭
My love, you're my love. 亲爱的，你是我的至爱
Don't cry. 不要哭
Today we are with Lilian Thuram. 今天我们的嘉宾是Lilian Thuram
Hello, Lilian Thuram. 你好，Lilian Thuram
This "white thinking" that you discuss in your book, 你在你的书中所讨论的这个“白色思考”
you say it is in us white people. 你说它出现在我们白人中
How was it inculcated and integrated in us? 它是怎样根植并与我们融合的？
White thinking is 白色思考是
the ideology that constructed the idea that "white is better." 一种意识形态，建立在“白人更为优秀”思想之上
But me, being West Indian, when I used to talk to my mom, 而我，作为一名西印度裔，当我和我母亲聊天时
about racism, she said that when she was young, 聊到种族主义，她说在她年轻时
she was told it was better to marry someone fairer 有人告诉她，最好嫁给一名白人
to have children with "scaped" skin, 以生下一个有着“摆脱性”肤色的孩子
skin that "escaped" blackness, less black skin. 所谓“摆脱”黑色皮肤，不那么黑的皮肤
In your book, Lilian Thuram, you cite Frantz Fanon. 在你的书里，Lilian Thuram，你引用了“Frantz Fanon”的言论
Frantz Fanon is, for me, the intellectual who understood racism best. 在我看来，Frantz Fanon是最了解种族主义的学者
I think that... because he was a psychiatrist. 我认为......因为他是一位精神病学家
And I think that indeed, 我认为
racism is a psychiatric problem. 种族主义的确是一种精神疾病
Because we've been locked into identities. 因为它把我们限制在身份特性中
Identities based on our skin color. 这种身份特性取决于我们的肤色
But we don't know it. 但我们并不知道
Of course, if you're locked into white identity, 当然，如果你被限制在白人身份中
it's more acceptable. 这还相对更好接受一些
Because you're unwittingly positioned 因为你不自觉地
as the norm. 被定性为标准
What's so disturbing about this locking-in, 对于因为自己肤色而遭到歧视的人来说
for people discriminated against for their skin color, 这种限制的讨厌之处在于
is the existential violence it wreaks. 它造成的确实存在的暴力
People don't realize. 人们没有意识到
- Thanks, Alice, see you tomorrow. - See you tomorrow. -谢谢你，爱丽丝，明天见 -明天见
We're in Bayonne. They redid the whole pitch. 我们在巴约纳，他们重整了球场
Look how pretty it is. 你看它多好看
And who's there? 谁在那？
Hold on, walk a little... 等一下，走一点点......
There... now the two of us. 这，看我们俩
What's the problem with Sara? 萨拉怎么了？
Tell me. 告诉我
Don't bullshit me, what's the problem? 别糊弄我，到底怎么了？
Fine. I'm hanging up. 好吧，我挂了
- What's going on? - Nothing. -怎么了？ -没什么
You seem upset. 你看起来不开心
I'm not upset, everything's fine. 我没有不开心，一切都好
Why were you shouting? 你为什么大喊大叫？
I don't know, I wasn't really shouting. 我不知道，我那不算大喊大叫
Your call sounded pretty intense. Who was it with? 你打电话时的气氛剑拔弩张，你刚和谁打电话呢？
François. 弗朗索瓦
I thought I heard my name. Am I wrong? 我好像听到我名字了，我听错了吗？
Is there a problem? 有问题吗？
No, no problem, it's all settled. 没有，没问题，都解决了
Can I know why I came up? What's settled? 我能知道为什么提到了我吗？解决什么了？
- Want to know? - Yes! -你想知道？ -对！
When I got to the airport, they were talking about you. 我去机场的时候，他们正在聊你
When I got close, they clammed up. 我一走近，他们就不说了
Anything unpleasant? 他们说了什么不好的吗？
How can I know? I got closer and they clammed up. 我怎么知道？我一走近，他们就不说了
What did François want? 弗朗索瓦想干什么？
Did he call or did you? 他打来的还是你打过去的？
It was me. 我打过去的
He wanted to know if I was still with you. 他想知道我是不是还和你在一起
You never told him? 你没告诉他？
Well, now he knows. 呃，现在他知道了
I said if I ever heard anyone badmouthing you, 我说如果我听到任何人中伤你
I wouldn't see them again. 我再也不会见这个人
I don't work with people who clam up. 我不和这些人共事
No way! 绝不可能！
Was he surprised we're still together? 他很惊讶我们还在一起吗？
He can't have imagined we would still be. 他无法想象我们还在一起
I don't give a fuck what François thinks. 我他妈才不在乎弗朗索瓦怎么想
He must have found it weird. 他肯定觉得很奇怪
Why weird? 奇怪什么？
It's not weird. 这不奇怪
My love. 我亲爱的
My love, my love... 我亲爱的，我亲爱的......
Jean? 让？
Can I come to the opening of the agency? 机构开业的时候我能去吗？
Sure. 当然
But... 但是......
there'll be the prospects, 有可能
their families. 家属都回来
François probably invited friends. 弗朗索瓦应该邀请了朋友
I'm not involved with that, but... 我不知道，但......
I think you can. 我觉得你可以来
I'll make some coffee. 我去煮点咖啡
You worked all night. 你工作了一整晚
Yeah. 是的
All is well? You're okay? 都还好吗？你还好吗？
I guess so. 挺好的吧
Will I see you tonight? 今晚我能见到你吗？
Yes. 能
You know, I'll be with the juniors, their families. 你知道，我到时候会和年轻运动员在一起，还有他们的家人
You'll see me, but I'll be busy. 你能见到我，但我会很忙
I know you'll be busy. 我知道你会很忙
I know I won't be your priority. 我知道我不是你最重要的
Think it's better I don't come? 你觉得我不来会更好吗？
We're just tired and spent all night getting this thing ready. 我们只是很累了，一整晚都在忙着把这件事准备好
It may not be the best time. 可能不是最好的时候
Didn't he invite friends? 他不是请了朋友吗？
Want to see the agency or François? 你想看机构还是弗朗索瓦？
The agency. 机构
You work with François, so I'll see François. 你和弗朗索瓦一起工作，所以我也会见到弗朗索瓦
Obviously. 显然是的
It's better, you're right. 的确这样更好，你说得对
I was wavering anyway. 本身我就在犹豫
After so long, 过去了这么久
I'd rather not see him with people around. 我最好还是不要当着别人的面见他
You know François won't wait on the corner forever. 你知道弗朗索瓦不会一直等在街角的
I'll ask him to dinner one day. 我改天请他来家里吃晚餐
So you can see him. 你就能见到他了
Yes, we'll see. 嗯，再说吧
I don't know when I'll get home. 我不知道我什么时候能回家
I'm not worried. You'll tell me. 我不担心，你会告诉我的
You can come if you want. 你想来可以来
I love you. 我爱你
I love you too. 我也爱你
The suit looks good on you. 你穿这身西装很好看
Thanks. 谢谢
Got your keys, taking your car. 拿上钥匙，把车开上
You're beautiful. 你真美
Crazy how pretty you are. 我为你的美疯狂
Are you okay? 你好吗？
Marcus is here. 马库斯在这
Come. 过来
Be right back. 我马上回来
Sara? What are you up to? 萨拉？你怎么来了？
It's great to see you! 见到你真好
Seen François? 见过弗朗索瓦了吗？
No. 没有
Come, he must be in an office somewhere. 跟我来，他一定在哪间办公室里
The space is nice. 这里很不错
We're not fully settled in yet. 我们还没完全安置好
Come, he'll be thrilled. 跟我来，他一定会很激动
I don't want to bother him. 我不想打扰他
I'm just looking... how you're set up here. 我就是过来看看......你们收拾得怎么样了
I'll leave you my number. 我给你我的电话
If you reconsider. 如果你改主意的话
- Okay. - Don't hesitate. -好的 -不要犹豫
You're as pretty as ever. 你象以前一样美
You okay? 你好吗？
I was asked to come see you all in an office. 我受邀来办公室看看你们所有人
Yeah, come on in. 好啊，进来吧
No, because I'm outside. 不了，我在外面
Sara, do as you please. There's no problem. 萨拉，你想做什么就做什么，没关系的
I... 我......
Do you mind... 你介意我......
You mind if I come? 你介意我过来吗？
It's not about what I mind. 我介不介意没有关系
I said I'm busy, but come if you want to. 我说了我很忙，但你想来随时可以来
- Yes? - Hold on... -怎么了？ -稍等
François? 弗朗索瓦？
Yes? 怎么了？
Yes? François? 怎么了？弗朗索瓦？
Yes, it's me. 对，是我
It's me. 是我
It's you? 是你吗？
Your offices are nice. You did a good job. 你的办公室很好，你做的不错
Where are you? 你在哪？
Jean didn't tell you? 让没有告诉你吗？
No, what? 没有，告诉我什么？
I'm... 我......
It's... 听到......
it's moving to hear your voice. 听到你的声音我真感动
Me too. 我也是
Where are you? 你在哪？
Outside. 我在外面
So come up! 那就上来啊！
Really? I won't bother you all? 真的吗？我不会打扰到你吗？
Come on up, I said. 上来吧
He's upstairs. 他在楼上
Your eyes. 你的眼睛
Where were you all this time? 这些日子你去哪了？
Not far. 不远
I missed you. 我想你了
I asked Jean for your number. 我问让要过你的电话
I'll write you tonight. 我今晚发给你
A text. You have to answer, okay? 发你消息，你一定要回复，好吗？
Okay. 好
Promise? 你保证？
I promise you. 我保证
My love. 我的爱
See you later, my love. 再见，我的爱
See you later. 再见
Always happy to see you, Marcus. 见到你总是很开心，马库斯
Me too. 我也是
We'll drop off Marcus. 我们顺路送马库斯回家
Sure. 当然
Here we go again, 又来一次
love, fear... 爱，忧虑......
sleepless nights... 无眠的夜......
the phone at my bedside... 我床边的手机......
getting wet. 感到变湿
It's sad. 这很可悲
No, why? 不会啊，为什么这么说？
Yes, it's sad, François. 这就是很可悲，弗朗索瓦
We're here, happy together. 我们快乐地在一起
We've found each other. 我们找到了彼此
That's not sad. 这不可悲
It's sad because we're not together anymore. 这很可悲，是因为我们没有在一起了
We won't escape each other again. We know it. 我们不会再逃离对方身边了，我们知道
What do we know? 我们知道什么？
Running away serves no purpose. 逃跑没有任何意义
Why do you say that? 你为什么这么说？
We're already together. 我们已经在一起了
Yeah, well... 是啊，不过......
whatever you say. 随你怎么说
You don't feel it? 你感受不到吗？
Do you feel it? 你能感受到吗？
Yes, I feel it. 我能感受到
So we'll stay together, that's all. 所以我们会在一起，就是这样’
Stop. 别说了
I love you. 我爱你
I love you too. 我也爱你
Me too. 我也是
In your opinion, Marcus, 照你的观点，马库斯
what people have the hardest time in life? 什么人是最苦难的？
Who has the greatest 谁的苦难
professional difficulties? 是最称职的苦难？
It's the worst for Blacks and Arabs. 黑人和阿拉伯人
Blacks and Arabs. 黑人和阿拉伯人
Marcus, 马库斯
you're my son. 你是我儿子
Your mom is Black. 你母亲就是黑人
And when I hear you talking about Blacks and Arabs, 当我听你聊到黑人和阿拉伯人的时候
it's like... 就好像......
they're no one. 他们都不算
You make it sound like... 听你的话就好像是
Blacks and Arabs are unable 黑人和阿拉伯人
to think independently of their skin color. 无法独立思考他们的肤色
They can't think independently 无法独立思考
of their origins. 他们的血源
It's as if I can't be anything other 就好像我是生于维特里的妮莉.查尔斯的儿子
than the son of Nelly Charles, born in Vitry? 除此之外再无其他身份
Is that it? 是这样吗？
You're in 10th grade? 你上十年级了？
What'll you do next year? 你下个学年打算做什么
What direction do you think you'll go? 你的目的地在哪里？
Will you get a high school diploma 你是会拿到高中文凭
or go to trade school? 还是去上技校？
Diploma or vocational school? 文凭还是职校？
I'm gonna go to trade school in retail. 我会去技校学销售
Trade school in retail? 去技校学销售？
Marcus, you're my son. 马库斯，你是我儿子
And I... 而我......
I'm not just a rugby player who got hurt, not just an ex-con. 我不止是一个受过伤的橄榄球运动员，一个有前科的人
Not just a guy who fucked up. 不只是一个搞砸了的人
I'm my own person. I'm me, I'm Jean. 我是我自己，我就是我，我是让
You're your own person, you're Marcus. 你也是你自己，你是马库斯
Understand? 明白吗？
When I hear you talking about Blacks and Arabs, 当我听你谈到黑人和阿拉伯人时
it's like you're repeating what French society wants. 你就好像是在重复法国社会想要你说的
You got sucked into their discourse, 你被他们这种论调迷惑了
a prevailing discourse, there's a prevailing one for whites, 这种具有说服力的论调，有对白人具有说服力的论调
a prevailing discourse for Blacks, for the poor, for the rich. 也有对黑人具有说服力的论调，对穷人、富人，都有
"I'm Black, therefore..." “我是黑人，因此......”
"I'm poor, therefore this." “我是穷人，因此......”
"I'm Black, therefore that." “我是黑人，因此......”
"I'm white, therefore..." "I'm whatever, therefore..." “我是白人，因此......” “我是随便什么人，因此......”
Who's "therefore"? I don't know. Are you "therefore"? 谁是“因此”？我不知道，你是“因此”吗？
Am I "therefore"? Are we? 我是“因此”吗？我们是吗？
No, you're Marcus, I'm Jean. Okay? 不，你是马库斯，我是让，明白吗？
We're our own people. 我们都是我们自己
Jean? 让？
Sorry, Mom, I'm in the middle of talking to Marcus. 不好意思，妈妈，我正在和马库斯聊天呢
I'm trying to get him... 我想要他......
to maybe understand... 尽可能理解......
the path he's going to take. 他将选择的道路
He thinks he'll be doing retail, sales, 他觉得他将来要做销售，卖东西
it used to be called trade school, now it's vocational school. 这种学校以前叫技校，现在叫职校
It's the same. 没区别
So I say no. It's no. 我说不行就是不行
First, finish 10th grade. 首先，念完十年级
Then 11th. 然后念完十一年级
Then your senior year. 然后读完最后一年
Keep your options open. 别把路走窄
Take time to think, grow. 多花点时间考虑，成长
And then make your decision. 然后再做决定
Do you understand me, Marcus? 明白了吗，马库斯？
Yes. 明白了
So did you make up your mind? 那么你做出决定了吗？
Yes. 做出了
And... what did you decide? 那......你决定怎么做？
Trade school in retail, 上技校，学销售
mixing school and internships. 一边读书，一边实习
So in fact, 所以实际上
nothing I said even mattered. 我说的都不重要
Coming here serves no purpose. 来这里也没任何意义
How will you manage? Thugging around like I did? 你要如何处理这些事？像我一样跑来跑去吗？
Tell me, I'm interested. 告诉我，我感兴趣
How will you manage? What'll you do? 你要怎么处理？要怎么做？
This is what you'll do. 这就是你要做的
If you go to trade school in retail... 如果你去技校学销售
you won't like this, I'm warning you! 你不会像这样的，我警告你
You'll be cleaning people's toilets. 你会给人刷马桶
You'll be with people in higher posts. 你会见到一些更高层级的人
They'll have diplomas. They'll have gone to business school. 他们有文凭，上过商学院
They'll be doing business, real business, high-level business. 他们做生意，真正的生意，高级的生意
And what'll you be doing? Cleaning their toilets. 而你到时候会干什么呢？给人家刷马桶
You'll do that for them. 你就是给人家干这个的
Is that what you want? 这就是你想做的吗？
No. 不是
How old are you, Marcus? 你多大了，马库斯？
I'm 15. 我15
Yeah, you're 15. 对，你15
Still in the world of childhood. 你还在孩子的世界里呢
You're not formed yet, in a state of becoming. 你还没有长大成人，你正在长大
You can still choose, still decide. 你还有的选，还有时间做决定
Being smart is when you have two paths, 聪明人就是，当你面前有两条路时
and you choose one, the right one, the one best for you. 你选择对的那一条，对你最好的那一条
It's your choice. 这是你的选择
And... 而且......
besides the money I give you, your allowance, 除了我给你的钱，你的零花钱
if you need anything, ask. 如果你还要什么，问我要就好
Instead of taking Grandma's credit card. 别再拿你奶奶的信用卡了
Here. 给
So, just to recapitulate, 总而言之
the right address is Vitry or Paris? 正确的地址是维特里还是巴黎？
- Paris, my wife's place. - Paris, okay. -巴黎，我妻子那 -巴黎，好的
Are you still divorced? 你还没有再婚吗？
And you still have a child to support. 你还有一个孩子要供养
- The grandmother still has custody? - Yes. -他的监护权还在他奶奶那吗？ -是的
We have everything. 都齐了
For me, your file is complete. It's all good. 我看，你的资料齐了，没问题了
Here. 给
And... good luck. 还有......祝你好运
Thank you. 谢谢你
- Goodbye. - Goodbye, sir. -再见 -再见
Remind me why you go to Vitry 你为什么要去维特里来着？
for groceries. 去杂货店
Tell me again. 再说一遍
I like Vitry. 我喜欢维特里
Because... I love my car, I love driving it. 因为......我喜欢我的车，我喜欢开她上路
And because there's a huge parking lot in front of the mall. 而且商场前面有一个很大的停车场
It makes shopping easy. 这样买东西就容易一些
It's less expensive. 便宜一些
Yeah, but what's there? What? 嗯，但那里有什么？
Everything. 什么都有
It's simple, there's everything. If you want... 很简单，那里什么都有，不论你是想要......
gardening supplies, hardware and lumber, 园艺工具、硬件还有木材
glasses and plates that don't cost a thing. 免费的玻璃杯和盘子
Everything. 应有尽有
Ask me for anything, 告诉我你想要什么
anything, and I'll find it. 我都能找到
And gas is cheaper there. 汽油也更便宜
Yes? 喂？
When do you get back? 你什么时候回来？
Okay, me too. 好，那我也一样
Bye. 拜拜
Who was that? 谁啊？
François. 弗朗索瓦
- He's not in Paris? - He is, but... -他不在巴黎？ -他在，只不过......
he's off to Romania, but he'll be here for the press thing. 他要去罗马尼亚了，但他要留在这边处理媒体的事情
I gotta go to the junior rugby match. 我得去青年橄榄球比赛那里
- Where's the press thing? - Paris. -媒体的事情在哪？ -在巴黎
Where in Paris? 在巴黎哪里？
At the agency. 在机构
You're incredible. 你真厉害
Yeah, at the agency. 对，就在机构
I can't see you. 我看不到你
I'm here. 我在这
I'm on my way to Paris. 我在来巴黎的路上了
- What? - I'm in Bucharest. -什么？ -我在布加勒斯特
I'm getting on the plane. 我马上上飞机
See you tomorrow. 明天见
What do you mean "tomorrow"? “明天”是什么意思？
Want me to come? 你想要我过来吗？
You have to. 你必须过来
Can we talk? 我们能谈谈吗？
Go on. 谈吧
What I endured last night, 我昨晚所受的苦
never again, you hear me? 别再让我受了，听到了吗？
Meaning? 什么意思？
I don't like seeing François kiss you on the mouth. 我不喜欢看到弗朗索瓦亲你嘴
You may, but I don't. 你可能喜欢，但我不喜欢
He didn't kiss me on the mouth. What is this about? 他没有亲我嘴，你这是什么意思？
Think I'm an idiot? 你觉得我是傻子吗？
I don't think you're an idiot, 我没觉得你是傻子
but he didn't kiss me on the mouth. 但他没有亲我嘴
I saw you. 我看到了
Really? 真的吗？
I'm glad you saw me. 我很庆幸你看到了
If you saw me, you saw I pulled away. Did you see that? 如果你看到我了，你就能看到我推开了他，难道你没看到吗？
If you see everything, you saw that. 如果你看到了全部，你就能看到的
You say you saw, 你说你看到了
so if you saw, you saw François, tipsy... 如果你看到了，看到了弗朗索瓦，醉醺醺的......
He doesn't drink. 他不喝酒
Don't interrupt, I'm talking. 别打断我，我在说话
If you have something to say, say it! 如果你想说什么，就说吧！
You always cut me off! 你总是打断我！
I can't talk with you, it's hell. 我不能和你说话，这简直就是地狱
Okay, I have to start all over. 好吧，那我从头再说一遍
Will you let me speak? 你能让我说话了吗？
Don't you know each sentence is a breath? 你不知道每说一句话就要吸一口气吗？
Every time you cut me off, I start over 每次你打断我，我都要重新说
from the beginning, to get my breath back! 从头说，重新吸一口气！
The breath of my sentence, there's a breath to sentences. 说一句话一口气
Okay, I'm starting over. May I? 好，我重说，可以吗？
- Go on. - Can I finish what I was saying? -说吧 -能让我把话说完吗？
Catch your breath... 喘口气......
if you have something to say. 如果你想说什么
Catch your breath. 喘口气
Yes, I do have something to say. 对，我有话要说
All right. 好吧
You say you saw. 你说你看到了
So if you saw, 如果你看到了
you saw me pull away and that he didn't kiss me. 你就能看到我推开了他，他没有亲到我
He didn't kiss me on the mouth. 他没有亲到我的嘴
So I'm a liar. 所以我是骗子
Yeah. 对
No, you're not a liar. 不，你不是骗子
You think you saw something you didn't. 你觉得你看到了些什么，其实你没有
And you didn't because it didn't happen. 你没看到，是因为根本就没有发生
You saw a fragment of a movement. 你看到某个片段
Probably. 也许吧
You were controlling so much you obviously found something. 你控制欲如此之强，显然是发现了什么
You're unbearable, Jean, unbearable! 你简直让人难以忍受，让，难以忍受！
I'm sick of this. 我受够了
Sometimes. 有时候
Too.
Being under surveillance. 在监控之下
I have no life, you have to control everything. 我没有自己的生活，你什么都要掌控
I control everything? 我什么都要掌控？
Now I'm a controller? 我又成控制狂了？
Who are you talking to? Not me. 你在和谁说话呢？不是我吧
I'm not that man. 我不是你说的这个人
If you're not that man, stop controlling me. 如果你不是这个人，就别再控制我了
I'll stop all right. 我不控制了好吧
Jean... 让
So I should stop seeing François? 所以我不该再见弗朗索瓦了是吗？
That's it? 是这样吗？
No problem if that's it, but say it, clearly. 没问题，但你要说清楚
Want me to say it clearly? 想让我说清楚？
Did you say “clearly”? 你是说“说清楚”吗？
I told you clearly. 我跟你说得很清楚了
I'm not that man. 我不是那样的人
I won't tell you to be with him or not. 我不会管你要不要见他
I said it clearly. 我说得很清楚了
François is someone I really loved. 弗朗索瓦是我真正爱过的人
So seeing him again isn't easy. 再次见他，对我而言并不好受
I'm sorry. 对不起
I'm sorry... 对不起
if I hurt you out of... 如果我因为......
out of lack of self-confidence, out of fear... 因为不自信、因为害怕而伤害到了你
You mustn't be afraid. 你一定不要害怕
Don't be afraid. I'm with you. 一定不要害怕，我和你是一起的
I'm with you too, Jean. I'm not your enemy. 我和你也是一起的，让，我不是你的敌人
It's not easy, you know. 这不容易，你知道
But it'll be fine. 但会好的
It's the past coming back, it's weird, just a phase. 这就是往事找上门来，很怪，但这只是一个阶段
If the past is coming back... 如果昨日重现......
I'm out of here. 我就退出
I don't give a fuck about the past coming back. 我他妈才不在乎什么昨日重现
If it's coming back, I'm out. 往事找上门来，那我就退出
The past coming back. 昨日重现
Damn... 操
The past coming back. 昨日重现
Holy shit. 去他妈的
The past is coming back... 昨日重现
- Calm down. - I'm calm, not angry. -你冷静一点 -我很冷静，我没有生气
- You're not calm. - I'm calm, I'm not angry. -你不冷静 -我很冷静，我没有生气
Getting angry won't get us anywhere. 生气对我们起不到任何帮助
I'm not angry. 我没有生气
Look how you're walking, talking. Don't say you're calm. 你看你是怎么走路、怎么说话的，别说你很冷静了
I didn't like your behavior last night. 我不喜欢你昨晚的表现
Can't you understand that? 你不明白吗？
What behavior? 什么表现？
I did nothing. 我什么都没做
I pulled away, I told you. 我跟你说了，我推开了他
- He didn't kiss me! - Sometimes you hurt people. -他没有亲我！ -有时候你伤害别人
He didn't kiss me, I took a step back. 他没有亲我，我后退了一步
I'm not talking about that! 我没在说这个！
What? 什么？
- What then? - About things you do, people you hurt. -那你在说什么？ -我说的是你做的事，伤害的人
What do I do? 我做的什么事？
You got there last night... 昨晚你到那......
You saw François. 你看到了弗朗索瓦
You saw only him, nothing else. 你只看到了他，你眼里只有他
You don't want us to sit down? 你不想坐下说吗？
I'm sorry, Jean. 对不起，让
I saw you after. 我后来看到你了
- With people I didn't know. - That's my point. -和我不认识的人一起 -这就是我要说的
You saw me after. 你后来才看到我
It's normal. You didn't look at me once. 这很正常，你一次都没看过我
Not once the whole night. 一整晚，一次都没有
We live together, so yes, you're right. 我们住在一起，所以你说得对
When we go out, I look at other people. That's not unusual. 我们在外面时，我会看向其他人，这没什么不正常的
I look at people when we go out. 在外面我会看其他人
But my hand was just in yours. 但我的手却在你手里
We live together. 我们住在一起
I've seen you every day for 9 years, I chose you. 过去的九年我每天都会看你，我选择了你
- Must I look at you when we go out? - I look at you. -我们出门时我也必须看你吗？ -我会看你
This is too much, Jean. I can't look at you and no one else. 这太过了，让，我不能满眼只有你
I look at other people too. 我也会看其他人
Don't pretend you don't get it! 别假装你听不懂
I look at people too! 我也会看别人！
I didn't "look look" at you. 我没有那样看你
I didn't look at you nonstop, but I knew where you were! 我没有一直盯着你看，但我随时知道你的动向！
You hurt me, that's all. 你伤害了我，就是这样
How many times do I have to say sorry? 我还要再说多少次对不起？
Some wounds never heal. 有些伤口是不会愈合的
So be careful, okay Sara? 所以多留些心，好吗萨拉？
This is no life for me. 这简直不是生活
What do you mean? 你什么意思？
You understand. 你知道的
Go see François, 去见弗朗索瓦吧
if he wants you, and you want him, 如果他想要你，你也想要他
there's nothing simpler. 就再简单不过了
I'll go back home. 我要回家了
Think I want to go back to François? 你觉得我想回到弗朗索瓦身边吗？
I've done that, thanks. No desire to do it again! 我试过了，谢谢，没想再来一遍
Maybe the desire is his. 没准他想呢
He was drunk! 他喝醉了！
He doesn't drink, so stop! 他不喝酒，所以别这样说了！
François doesn't drink. 弗朗索瓦不喝酒
So you go see him, or I will. Want me to? 要么你去见他，要么我去，你想要我去吗？
Settle your scores between yourselves. 你们之间的问题你们自己解决
Man to man, as if it didn't concern me. 坦诚相待，仿佛与我无关
I pulled my head away, I said! 我躲开了，我说过！
Is my word worthless? Why am I even talking? 我的话是耳旁风吗？为什么我还在说这件事？
Fuck all this. 操他妈的吧
Fuck all this, fuck the balcony, fuck the kitchen! 操他妈的，操他妈的阳台，操他妈的厨房！
- I'll go back home, fuck this! - Go on, go back to Vitry! -我要回家了，操他妈的吧！ -去啊，滚回维特里去！
Thanks, Alice, see you. 谢谢你，爱丽丝，回见
See you tomorrow, Sara. 明天见，萨拉
Yes? 喂？
Sara... 萨拉......
Now we know. 现在我们知道了
Didn't you know I loved you back then? 你难道不知道那时候我爱过你吗？
I thought you'd leave me. 我以为你会离开我
I wanted to be the first to go. 我想做主动离开的那个人
None of that matters. 这些都不重要了
Life's not over, look how good we are. 人生还很长，我们现在多好
It does matter. 都过去了
I couldn't live with you, even though I loved you. 我没法和你一起生活，哪怕我爱你
It's sad... 真是可悲......
not being able to live with the man you love, isn't it? 不能和自己爱的人生活在一起，是不是很可悲？
Yes, very sad. 是啊，很可悲
Now it's impossible. Jean's in pain. 如今这些都不重要了，让很痛苦
We're so good together. 我们在一起很好
I have to go home. 我得回家了
I don't want to go home. 我不想回家
We'll meet up again. 我们会再见面的
- You sure? - Positive. -你确定吗？ -我确定
How long since we've both been alone in a room? 离我们上次独处过去多久了？
Turn around. 转过去
No, I'd rather see you. 不，我想看着你
Turn around so I can stroke your butt. 转过去，我好干你屁股
No, François... 不，弗朗索瓦......
Be nice, just to make me happy. 乖，就当是为哄我开心
Turn around. 转过去
Don't move. 别动
- No. - Wait. -不要 -等等
Don't move. 别动
François. 弗朗索瓦
Wait, don't worry. 等等，别担心
Actually I am worrying, François. 我确实在担心，弗朗索瓦
Stop. 停下
I said no. 我说不要
I want to be ready and I'm not, that's all. 我要准备好才行，但我没准备好，就是这样
You're mean. 你好过分
I'm leaving now, for good. 我要走了，我不会再回来了
Not this. Not this, François. 别这样，别这样，弗朗索瓦
Not this. 别这样
I love you! Come! 我爱你！过来！
I love you too, but you hurt me. 我也爱你，但你伤到我了
Come! 过来！
Come, please, come to bed. 过来，求求你，来床上
Come! 过来！
I won't go to bed with you, but okay, I'll stay. 我不想和你上床，但我可以留下
What are you doing? 你在干什么？
You'll just sit there? 你打算就坐在这？
Yes. 对
I feel like reading. 我想读点东西
Okay... 好吧......
I'll stay in bed. 我会待在床上
Go on, stay in bed. 好啊，就待在床上
I won't leave again. 我不会再离开了
You neither. You won't leave. 你也一样，不要再离开了
Maybe after... 或许之后......
I'll buy you a ring. 我可以给你买一枚戒指
Going out? 出去吗？
Marcus never got home. 马库斯没有回家
Really? 真的吗？
I'll call you. 我会打给你
Anyone here see Marcus? 这里有人看见过马库斯吗？
I'm his father. Have you seen him? 我是他父亲，你见过他吗？
I saw you with him. 我见过你和他在一起
Know who my son is? 你知道吗我儿子是谁吗？
No one's seen him? 没人看到过他吗？
Mr. Kemas? Kemas先生？
- Seen Marcus? - Nope. -见过马库斯吗？ -没有
No one's seen him? 没有人看到过他吗？
No, I haven't seen him. 没有，我没看到过他
I organize everything by myself in my brain. 我自己在脑子里整理出了所有事
So maybe... 所以或许......
how many years have I been alone? 我独自一人多少年了？
So I made mistakes. 所以我犯过错
No, that's not it, it's just... I don't know. 不，不是这个，就是......我不知道
Jean, he needs more than me. 让，他不仅仅需要我
When he was a child, I'd take him here and there. 他小的时候，我曾带他去过很多地方
- He doesn't need me anymore. - Not true. -他不再需要我了 -不是的
You were his first parent when there was no one, don't say that. 他没有父母荫蔽的时候，你是他的第一个家长，别这么说
So what do we do? 那我们怎么办？
Don't know anymore. 不知道
I'll go looking, what else can I do? 我会继续找，我还能做什么呢？
- Where? - I'll walk around. -去哪找？ -我四处走走看
I'll end up finding him. 我会找到他的
Know everyone's looking for you? 你知道所有人都在找你吗？
Grandmother, father, everyone. 你奶奶，你父亲，所有人
What are you doing? 你在干什么？
Nothing. 没干什么
What's wrong, Marcus? What's going on? 怎么了，马库斯？发生什么了？
- Look at me. - I am. -看着我 -我在看着你
No, you're not, you're looking away. 你没有，你在看别处
You're looking elsewhere. 你在看别处
I see you. 我看你
I prefer looking elsewhere too. 我也喜欢看着别的地方
Sometimes. 有时候
Do what you have to do here and go. 把你来这要做的事做完，然后走吧
Let's go home. 我们回家
Yes? 喂？
You'll never guess where I am. 你绝对猜不到我在哪
I don't know. 我不知道
At your office? 在你办公室？
No. 不对
On the street? 在街上？
No, I'm not exactly on the street. 我不在街上
In a park? 在公园里？
No, it looks like a park, but... 不对，这里看起来像个公园，但......
- You sound outside. - Yes, I'm outside. -你听起来像是在外面 -对，我在外面
I don't know, you're not on the street, not in a park. 我猜不到，你不在街上，不在公园里
On your balcony. 我在你家阳台上
What do you mean? 什么意思？
Waiting for Jean. 我在等让
- How did it go in Vitry? - Well. -维特里那边怎么样？ -还好
- Your son's okay? - Fine. -你儿子还好吗？ -还好
I brought wine. 我带了酒
I need to talk to you. 我得和你谈谈
Bastard. 混蛋
I'm going to stop working with François. 我打算不再和弗朗索瓦共事了
Why? You were so happy. 为什么？你干得很开心啊
I was happy, now I'm not. 当时我是很开心，但我现在不开心了
Is there a reason? 有原因吗？
Yes, probably. 算是吧
What kind of reason? 哪种原因？
- He says things I don't like. - What things? -他说了些我不喜欢的东西 -什么东西？
Things. 就是些东西
Can I help? 我能帮忙吗？
You want to help me? 你想帮我吗？
You? 你？
What did François tell you? 弗朗索瓦跟你说什么了？
That I should leave you. 他说我应该离开你
That's what he said. 这就是他说的
He gets to decide? Leave me why? 他凭什么做决定？为什么要你离开我？
Come on, please. Don't insist. 拜托你了，别嘴硬了
Scared to hurt me? 害怕伤到我吗？
He said you're a bad person. 他说你不是个好人
That you're fake, not sincere, that's what he said. 说你虚伪、不真诚，这就是他说的
- I'm not sincere? - Yeah. 我不真诚？ -对
I'm fake? 我虚伪？
- That's a good one! Me? - Yes, you. -说得好！我？ -对，你
Not bad! 说得好！
Really not bad! 说得真好！
Not bad, right? 对吧？
Yeah, it's not bad. 对，说得好
He says you play both sides, that I should be wary. 他说你脚踏两只船，说我应该留神
Shouldn't you be wary of him, maybe? What nerve! 或许你该留神的不该是他吗？神经病！
Why does he say I'm fake? Any examples? 他为什么说我虚伪？有证据吗？
To prove I'm a bad person, as you say? 就为了证明我不是个好人，像你说的那样？
He says I stop you from being with him. 他说是我阻碍你和他在一起
Excuse me? 什么？
He says you want to be with him and I stop you, get it? 他说你想和他在一起，而我阻碍了你，明白了吗？
That you lie to me, that you love him and want to be with him. 他说你骗了我，说你爱他，想和他在一起
Oh yeah? 是吗？
That's not true, Jean. That's just him talking. 他说的不是真的，让，这只是他的一面之词
Why does he say it, in your opinion? 在你看来，他为什么说这些？
Simply because it's true. 很简单，因为这些都是真的
Why do you believe him and not me? 为什么你要相信他而不相信我？
Are you in his grip? 你被他控制了吗？
No, I'm not in his grip. 没有，我没有被他控制
No, it's just... 没有，他只是......
he showed me your texts. 他只是给我看了你的短信
I don't want to see you anymore. 我不想再见到你了
Leave, please, leave. 你走吧，拜托你，走吧
What texts? 什么短信？
I never sent a text that would bother you. 我从没有发过会让你烦恼的短信
- Leave. - I'm not afraid. -走吧 -我不怕
Glad to hear it. 很高兴听到你这么说
Now get out. 出去吧
What texts? There are none. 什么短信？没有过什么短信
Stop repeating "What texts", 别再问“什么短信”了
I saw them! 我都看到了！
- It's not true. - Get out. -那都不是真的 -出去
It's not true. 不是真的
There's no use lying, really. Get out. 不要再骗我了，真的，出去
What texts? What did they say? 什么短信？都写了什么？
They said... 写了......
want to know what they said? 你想知道写了什么吗？
They said: "Love." 上面写了：”爱“
"I love you." ”我爱你“
"I think about you," "I love... your smile." “我在想你”“我爱......你的微笑”
"I love your scent." “我爱你的气味”
"No one can tear us apart." “没人能将我们分开”
He said nothing? It's all on me? 他什么都没说吗？只有我说了吗？
I don't give a fuck about him! 我他妈不在乎他！
Move or I'll move you. 别逼我赶你出去
Fuck! 操！
I can't stand it anymore. 我受不了了
What did I do wrong? What did I do to deserve this? 我做错什么了？我做了什么要被这样对待？
- Why is this happening to me? - I can't stand it! -为什么这件事会发生在我身上？ -我受不了了！
Want to drive me crazy? 你想逼疯我吗？
You won't! 你不会的！
You won't be able to! 你做不到的！
You know why? Because it's over! 你知道为什么吗？因为我们结束了！
It's over, I don't care! 结束了，我不在乎！
- Stop this game! Stop it! - What game? -别再搞这一套了！别搞了！ -哪一套？
You think I was ever free in my life? 你觉得我这一生自由过吗？
No idea! I don't give a fuck! 不知道！我他妈不在乎！
Listen to me! 听我说！
Do I have to go to prison for you to listen? 我得进监狱你才能听我说吗？
I was never free, never! 我从未自由过，从未！
My whole life, I toe the line. Obey, obey, obey! 我的整个人生，我循规蹈矩，服从，服从，服从！
I don't give a fuck! Figure it out! 我他妈不在乎了！想想看！
I can't live this, hear? 我不能这样活着，听到了吗？
I can't live this anymore! 我不能再这样活着了！
I'm going home to Vitry, hear? 我要回维特里了，听到了吗？
I'm going. I'm leaving now. 我要走了，我现在就走
Let me explain. 听我解释
- Let me explain. - There's nothing to explain! -听我解释 -没什么好解释的！
You don't understand. 你不明白
Go on, call him! 去吧，打给他！
Stop going on about him! I don't give a fuck about him! 别再说关于他的事了！我他妈不在乎他！
He doesn't give a fuck either! 他也不他妈在乎！
He says you hurt and betray, that's what! 他说你伤人，说你背叛，就这些！
Stop saying horrible things about me. 别再说我有多糟糕了
It's not true, you know it's not true. 这不是真的，你知道这不是真的
Stop bobbing like that, stop! 别再像这样晃了，别晃了！
Stop bobbing! 别晃了！
Calm down, stop screaming. 冷静下来，不要喊叫
Let's stop... let's stop. 我们停下......我们停下
Stop screaming. 别喊叫了
I'm not screaming. 我没有喊叫
No, I'm calm. 我很冷静
Forgive me. 原谅我
- Forgive you? - Sorry. -原谅你？ -对不起
You're asking for forgiveness? 你让我原谅你？
- I thought you did nothing wrong. - I did. -我以为你没错 -我有错
I did something wrong. 我有错
Of course, I did something wrong. 我当然有错
But I was unsettled, lost. 但我当时很不安，很迷茫
It's over now. I didn't know where I was. 现在都过去了，我当时不知道自己怎么了
But... I didn't betray you. 但我......但我没有背叛你
I didn't betray you, I betrayed myself. 我没有背叛你，我背叛了我自己
Now I know, now I'm sure. 现在我知道了，现在我确信了
- Let me show you. - Stay away. -我给你看 -别过来
- Can I come closer? - Stay away. -我能靠近一些吗？ -别过来
- Please. - I don't want you touching me! -求求你 -我不想你碰我！
Do you hear me? 听到了吗？
Can I put my hand... 我能把手......
- On my forehead? - Yes. -放我额头？ -对
Why, to soothe me? 为什么，为了安抚我吗？
Want to soothe me? Right! 为了安抚我？对！
Know what? You make me want to vomit. 你知道吗？你让我想吐
I want to vomit. 我想吐
You may not have a life, but I do! 或许你没有自己的生活，但我有！
I may not have a credit card, but I have a life. 我没有信用卡，但我有自己的生活
- And it'll always be mine. - Of course. -而我的生活永远都是我的 -当然
Listen! 听着！
Stop saying "of course." 不要再说“当然”
I have a life and I'm going home, okay? 我有自己的生活，我现在要回家了，好吗？
You had the angel. 你曾有过天使
Now you'll have the devil. 但你现在要见到魔鬼了
Too bad for you. 太可惜了
I'll destroy everything! 我要毁掉一切！
- I'll wreck it all. - Stop! -我要把一切都毁掉 -不要！
I'll wreck it all. 我要全毁掉
There's a gun here, it's loaded too. 那里有把抢，上了膛的
Think I'll go back to prison to make you happy? 你觉得我会回到监狱好让你高兴吗？
Want to know what I think of you? 想知道我怎么看待你吗？
You're a bitch, a slut. 你就是一个婊子，一个荡妇
Fuck. 操
Sara, call me. 萨拉，给我回电话
Call me back. 给我回电话
I'd like to talk to you. 我想和你谈谈
Yes. 好
I need to catch my breath too. 我也要喘口气
The other day, when you said you loved François, 那天，你说你爱过弗朗索瓦
it hurt. 我很受伤
Physically. 身体上的受伤
Like... 就好像......
my ribs tore through my chest. 我的肋骨被扯了出来
My heart tore through my chest. 我的心脏被扯了出来
But... 但......
now it's over... 现在都过去了
I've thought it over. 我想过了
It's like I've been set free. 就感觉好像我自由了
And I also wanted to tell you 而且我也想告诉你
something else. 另外一些事
If you agree, 如果你同意
I'd like... 我想......
to stay with you forever. 和你永远在一起
But, 但是
if you love François, 如果你爱弗朗索瓦
and if he loves you, 而他也爱你的话
go and live. 你就去和他在一起吧
I'll let you live. 我放你走
I'll go back to Vitry. 我会回维特里
Because you met François 因为你是在遇见我之前
before me. 遇见他的
And also... 还有......
I want you to know... 我想让你知道
that today I'm capable of... 如今我已经......
living without the person I love. 没有我爱的人，我也能生活
And if you're happy, 如果你快乐
I think I'll be happy. 我想我也会快乐的
Not interested by what I have to say? 你对我想说的不感兴趣吗？
It's fried. 这个坏了
Everything's erased? 所有记录都没了吗？
Yes, there's nothing left. 对，什么都没了
No nothing, no numbers? 电话号码也没了？
Nothing. 什么都没了
Nothing? 什么都没了？
Thank you. 谢谢你
BOTH SIDES OF THE BLADE 双刃剑
Monica_bang 自译
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